I am grateful I made it to the year 2010. I don't know what is in store for me for 2011. I do know I am looking forward to the New Year. I use to make my New Year's Resolution every year, but then I stopped making them because not all of my resolutions were fulfilled. It's more procrastination then any. I promise to do this or that never really works because you never know what is in store for you.
All I ask is, the opportunity to live long enough to see my grandchildren get married and have children of their own.
I stop asking for good health. I ruined that a long time ago. I abused my health and myself when I was younger and now I have to live with the fact that my body is slowly degenerating. I live day by day...there are moments when I have great days and there are moments when my days aren't so great.
I can't complain...I won't complain. I live with pain everyday, but I keep going.
I'm 61 years old....I am a workaholic....I am still able to workout at the gym....I still push my limits at the gym....and I deal with the fact I am getting older, I tolerate what my body is throwing at me, and I do the best I can to overcome my abilities.
I know I am a strong person and I can deal with most anything that happens to me. There is nothing that can surprise me anymore...
I feel I have dealt with everything that was thrown at me. I've been there, done that.
My faith has never left me. I left my faith. I had the pleasure of serving 2 temples, San Diego and Salt Lake City. I was called to serve in the Young Women, Primary, and ward missionary.
I wanted to serve a mission and I also wanted to marry in the Temple. I don't regret the choices I made. I still listen to that small still voice in me. And when I feel I have overreacted, I step back and clear my thoughts so I can think a lot more clearer.
Am I grateful that I was chosen to be here. Am I grateful that I am able to make choices. Am I grateful that I was blessed to bear children. Am I grateful that I was blessed to be sealed along with my children. Am I grateful that I was able to do the work for my mothers parent and seal them. Am I grateful that I was able to do the genealogy for my father so he may know where he came from and who his relatives were that passed on. I am not only grateful, I am blessed that I was able to serve in my callings, in the temple(s), and also for my family. The greatest gift was the gift of doing the work for your relatives/family and to know they will be together.
Again, I don't know what 2011 has in store for me....but whatever it is, I am ready.
Last but not least.....I am thankful to be part of a wonderful family. I have a wonderful man who devotes himself to his daughters. And soon he will be a wonderful grandfather who will devote himself to his new granddaughter.
We may have our moments....but my life with him is wonderful and he always makes me laugh. I am thankful that he chose me in his life.
